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On Purpose with Jay Shetty

EMMA WATSON EXCLUSIVE: The Story She Has Not Shared Until Now

with Emma Watson

Published September 24, 2025
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About This Episode

Emma Watson joins Jay Shetty to have a long-form, personal conversation about stepping back from acting, disentangling her public persona from her private self, and learning to live more truthfully. She talks about growing up between two households, using acting as an escape, the emotional costs of fame and Hollywood, and the health and nervous-system burnout that forced her to pause her career. Emma also explores love and relationships, creative writing as therapy, friendship and interdependence, and how she holds nuanced positions on activism, including disagreements with J.K. Rowling and speaking about Palestine and Israel.

Topics Covered

Acting craft Fame and celebrity culture Personal Development Mental health Burnout Feminism Romantic relationships Friendship dynamics Religion and spirituality Israel-Palestine conflict Art and creativity Identity

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Quick Takeaways

  • Emma stepped back from acting when she realized that, despite having a "dream" career, she was not actually happy or healthy and was repeatedly overriding her body and nervous system.
  • Growing up between two very different parental homes made her a sensitive observer of others' pain, shaped her acting, and forced her to build her own beliefs from scratch.
  • She found Hollywood sets and press tours emotionally brutal because she came looking for deep, familial friendships in an environment many others approached as purely career-focused.
  • Emma realized she was using yoga, meditation, and wellness tools to tolerate an unsustainable life, rather than letting them guide her toward her deeper truth.
  • Writing a one-woman play about transitioning from global fame to being a student became one of her most healing experiences and helped her family and friends finally understand her inner world.
  • She distinguishes between loving someone and being able to build a safe, generative partnership, emphasizing communication styles, nervous-system compatibility, and mutual respect for each other's purpose.
  • Emma feels that Emma Watson the public avatar became so heavy and over-idealized that she herself could no longer live up to or even fully relate to that image.
  • She tries to hold seemingly opposing truths at once-such as gratitude and love for J.K. Rowling alongside disagreement-and believes no one is disposable despite intense public debates.
  • Emma sees asking for help and allowing others to support you as an act of intimacy and a gift to friends, not a burden or a failure of independence.
  • She believes truth must be spoken with kindness, and that partial honesty and self-sanitizing ultimately block intimacy and personal alignment.

Podcast Notes

Opening and why Emma chose to do this podcast now

Emma's intention for speaking publicly again

She has been largely out of the public eye and avoiding most interviews[2:18]
• Emma says she hasn't stopped doing interviews to hide, but because she wanted a different kind of conversation she couldn't find in other formats
Why she reached out specifically to Jay[3:09]
• Emma read Jay's book after her friend Nupa recommended it and noticed he was "having a different conversation" on social media
• She called Nupa and said she wanted to ask Jay if she could come on his podcast, and Nupa said she'd been waiting for that moment
• Emma contacted Jay the previous week, and they managed to schedule the recording for that Monday, which she frames almost as serendipitous timing

Relief in being honest versus strategic in interviews

Previous interviews felt like chess and required her to think several steps ahead[5:02]
• She felt enormous responsibility to protect films, honor directors' intentions, and represent the work of many people when doing press
• She mentions even a fragrance campaign with Prada and how seriously she takes doing justice to any project she fronts
Today she is speaking only for herself[5:10]
• Emma says it's unusual that she's not here on behalf of a film or brand but simply to show up as herself, which makes honesty easier

Media formats, authenticity, and why podcasts feel different

Constraints of traditional media versus long-form conversation

Emma thinks some media forms structurally limit authenticity despite good intentions[6:21]
• She contrasts Twitter, Instagram, TikTok, podcasts, photographs, films, and writing, and says each medium "allows or doesn't allow" certain kinds of expression
Why she's drawn to podcasts[7:03]
• She loves the intimacy of people listening in the shower, on walks, or making breakfast, calling it "personal intimate time"
• She appreciates the long-form nature of podcasts because it enables a kind of nuanced discussion she felt wasn't possible before

Emma's current day-to-day life, driving ban, and humbling transitions

Learning to ride a bicycle and losing her driving license

Emma recently started riding a bicycle and jokes it's useful now that she has a driving ban[7:44]
• She describes her driving ban as "mainstream news" and recalls the shame of it becoming international headlines
Humbling shift from being driven on sets to driving herself[8:32]
• On film sets she was not allowed to drive herself because of insurance and scheduling needs, so she was always chauffeured
• As a student she suddenly had to drive everywhere without much experience, which exposed basic life-skill gaps like keeping to speed limits and remembering keys
• She jokes about wanting to tell people, "I used to be good at things," contrasting her competence on set with feeling inept in everyday logistics

Recognizing that most adults are just trying to keep it together

Emma observes that nearly everyone is "scrabbling around trying to keep the pieces together"[11:26]
• She values people who can openly admit "it's not going so well today" and sees failure as a compelling starting point

Learning in public, returning to school, and going deep rather than fast

Being forced to learn and make mistakes in public

Emma says starting so young meant she had to learn in public and correct herself publicly over time[12:39]
• She cites feminism and intersectional feminism as an area where she initially had gaps and had to seek out more context and education
• She is grateful that some criticism came as being "lovingly called in" rather than purely attacked, and credits Mara Ilarasai for teaching her that discomfort can signal learning

Discomfort as a sign of growth

Emma reframed feeling uncomfortable from a cue to flee into a potential sign that something good and educational is about to happen[15:21]
• She now tries not to bolt when she feels discomfort in conversations, seeing it as an opportunity for expansion

Going back to school and learning styles

She continues to study because she wants to have things to say that are worth saying and believes that requires listening to people who are not herself[18:55]
• Being around young people who still believe the world is malleable has been inspiring, especially amid so much dystopian media
Immersive versus incremental learning[16:05]
• Emma resonates with Jay about needing long, immersive stretches (like a week on holiday) to deeply engage with a subject, rather than 30-minute daily increments
• A mentor told her that doing 90% of what she wants at 50% of the speed would make life much better, pushing her to slow down and stop fixating on speed

Childhood, sensitivity, and family structure

Being highly sensitive to others' pain

Emma recalls a core childhood memory (kept private) that revealed how intensely she feels other people's pain[26:00]
• She long struggled to give herself grace and only recently began seeing her sensitivity as a strength that requires specific care
Responsibility and power from her position in life[27:13]
• Emma notes that her fame has given her extraordinary power but also extraordinary responsibility, mirroring the trade-offs of any gift

Growing up between two homes and "changing costumes"

She spent weekdays with her mother and weekends with her father, describing it as switching costumes between two different lives and value systems[31:00]
• As the eldest child, she tried to be glue for her mother and younger brother, feeling they lacked sufficient support and that their family did not fit a nuclear mold
Developing critical thinking without a ready-made blueprint[32:13]
• Her parents had very different views, so there was no consensus; she had to form all her own opinions and decide what she thought was important in life
• This made her serious as a child and later motivated her not to live a split life where her public presentation didn't match her private reality

Acting as escape, evolving relationship with her craft, and stepping back

Acting beginning with poetry and emotional release

Her first big performance was a poetry competition at age nine, despite her natural shyness[35:01]
• She describes performance as an out-of-body, adrenaline-filled experience where she could express feelings she had no space to discuss at home
Acting as escape from family pain[37:23]
• Emma suspects she used acting to escape the pain of her parents' non-traditional, separated family situation and the ongoing discomfort of living between two worlds
• As she has become more healed and whole, she questions whether she still "needs" acting in the same way or the same urgency

Realizing the cost of drawing on painful memories

On set for a character's death scene, she realized she was repeatedly revisiting painful personal memories as acting fuel[39:10]
• She began to question whether using those memories as tools was healthy and wondered if there might be another way to act without re-traumatizing herself

Expecting family-like bonds on sets and getting hurt

Emma came to post-Harry Potter sets looking for lifelong friendships like she had with that cast[38:51]
• Outside of Harry Potter, many colleagues approached projects as career opportunities rather than as places to form deep bonds, and she found the resulting rejection "bone-breakingly painful"
• She concludes she may not be built for highly competitive environments and is proud that her heart could still be broken rather than becoming hardened
Redefining success to preserve her humanity[42:13]
• Emma spent years beating herself up for not being "strong enough" to hack it, then realized that winning in that environment might have been a greater failure for who she wants to be
• She now feels that if something costs her peace, it is too expensive, no matter how prestigious the opportunity

Hollywood work rhythms, nervous system impacts, and red carpets

Unsustainable production cycles and chemical highs and crashes

Lead roles often mean 14-16 hour days, six days a week, followed by sudden drop-offs between projects[45:52]
• She sees the huge swings in adrenaline and cortisol as a reason addiction and mental illness are so common in high-stress, high-profile professions

Why red carpets feel so strange from the inside

Emma explains that people screaming on a carpet triggers a primal sense that something is wrong while she must appear calm and graceful[48:04]
• She is juggling sensory overload, stylist instructions about how to stand, and multiple talking points to hit while appearing unfazed
The illusion of on-set friendships[50:11]
• Press junkets often ask if casts hang out and are all friends, and everyone nods, though in reality most are too exhausted to see each other outside work
• She finds it painful to pretend to have deep, supportive friendships she and others actually wish they had but often don't

Harry Potter casting and her mother's fight for normalcy

Getting the role of Hermione

Casting involved a country-wide search; Emma's school submitted drama-loving students and she was one of about 12 chosen to audition[52:27]
• She did nine auditions over a year and a half from age nine and felt a strong sense of fate that she was meant to be Hermione specifically

Her mother's insistence on a "normal" childhood

Emma credits her mother for being a "warrior" for her normalcy, insisting she attend regular school and sit exams[54:41]
• Studios would have found it easier if she had not gone to school, but her mother spent hours on the phone demanding she maintain parts of an ordinary childhood

Emma Watson vs. "Emma Watson" the avatar, dating, and identity

Experiencing herself as an overproduced avatar

Emma describes the public figure "Emma Watson" as an avatar so reproduced and loaded that she can no longer "be that" or live up to magazine-cover versions[1:00:25]
• On a date, someone texted her "Emma Watson makes me anxious" and she replied that Emma Watson makes her anxious too, highlighting the gap between her and her persona

Dating challenges and dehumanizing reactions

Sometimes people don't recognize her initially, and when they suddenly realize who she is, their behavior can change dramatically, which feels dehumanizing[1:12:51]
• She appreciates when dates haven't seen her films and apologetically admit it, because it removes an extra layer of projection from the interaction
Navigating people who feel they "know" her[1:10:04]
• Emma notes that people who have had some contact with her can project a sense of intimacy that doesn't match her experience, similar to Jay's experience in a large spiritual community

Helping others understand the "real" her

She sometimes reads parts of a play she wrote to people she dates because explaining how weird her life is requires creative aids[1:14:13]
• Emma says her play and writing have been the best therapy for making sense of her experience and letting others in on it

One-woman play, art as therapy, and being understood

Origin and purpose of her one-woman show

She wrote a play about transitioning from being a full-time actress and activist to returning home and becoming a "normal" student[1:16:19]
• Emma kept a journal of those experiences for about a year, then turned it into a one-woman show for friends, family, and as her first-year creative writing assessment
Impact on her roommate and parents[1:19:05]
• Her roommate of seven years stopped her while she read it and asked if she really felt that way; he said he had no idea, revealing how little even close people understood her inner world
• Her parents were also shocked and moved, indicating she had not been conveying her reality clearly to them either

Making art for healing and connection

Emma urges people to make art about their experiences-poems, plays, songs, paintings-even if they don't see themselves as artists[1:22:25]
• She confesses to daily doubts that her work is narcissistic or redundant but emphasizes others don't actually know your story unless you share it
• She says having a physical artifact for your thoughts and feelings frees you because they no longer live only in your head
• Emma describes being understood by people around you as "the best feeling in the world" and sees personal art as a route to that understanding

Integrating multiple selves and avoiding either-or identities

Realizing she can't "kill off" parts of herself

She once thought she had to end her academic chapter to focus fully on acting but realized her student/academic self was what made being famous tolerable[1:25:09]
• Even as she returns to more ordinary life, she can't fully kill off her public performer side, as part of her still needs creative and public outlets
Yes-and instead of either-or[1:25:03]
• Emma sees human life as "yes and" rather than choosing one label or era, and wants to keep threading all parts of herself into one tapestry

Love, partnership, marriage pressure, and holding evolving truths

Emma's evolving understanding of love

She grew up with a limited, Disney-style idea of irreversible falling in love, but now sees falling in love as relatively easy compared to building partnership[1:27:21]
• She emphasizes the importance of whether conflict is generative, how well partners argue, and whether they can make each other's nervous systems feel safe

Jay's perspective on being taught by love

Jay shares that his wife taught him about love partly because she doesn't buy into movie/Disney versions and because he loved her enough to be taught by her[2:36:06]
• He notes she never began valuing him more for his success, which forced him to learn to love himself for who he is rather than for achievements

On marriage timelines and worthiness

Emma says she is "so happy not to be divorced yet" and doesn't feel entitled to marriage; she sees it as something she might never be worthy of but hopes for[2:48:45]
• She finds societal pressure on young women to marry by a certain age cruel and unromantic, especially since she didn't know herself well enough to marry earlier without chaos
Wanting a partner who honors her purpose[2:43:05]
• She hopes to meet someone who feels her work and vision in the world are important and intersect with theirs, so they can be in service of each other's purpose

Hard questions, stepping away from the dream career, and listening to her body

Asking whether she was truly happy at the peak of her career

Emma describes one of her hardest questions as asking: "You have the career and life that looks like the dream, but are you really happy and healthy?"[1:52:24]
• Admitting to herself that she was not happy, and that she didn't want what she had, felt terrifying, especially when the world saw her position as extremely valuable

Recognizing misalignment between values and actions

More recently she asked herself if she was truly living the values she talks about and found areas where she was not aligned by her own standards[3:09:05]
• She now feels she has the time and responsibility to change those gaps rather than just talk about caring for the planet and sustainability

Dismantling the support structure of Emma Watson Inc.

Stepping back required unraveling an infrastructure of agents, publicists, managers, and assistants whose lives were intertwined with hers[3:11:54]
• She describes a kind of infantilization that comes with constant help and wondered if she could handle life without an "army" doing basic tasks amidst the complications of fame

Her body forcing a decision and refusing to be numbed

Emma was repeatedly on seven or eight courses of antibiotics a year because her immune system was low, constantly getting infections[3:18:26]
• She realized she was using yoga, meditation, and other practices to prop herself up in a high-stress life instead of letting them guide her toward change
• She turned down most pharmaceutical aids like beta blockers and sleep drugs, deciding she didn't want to live low-level unwell and medicated just to continue
Vipassana retreat and irreversibility of self-honesty[3:26:43]
• On her first ten-day Vipassana, she initially felt ecstasy and drew a picture saying "I am beautiful," then hit a wall realizing her mind created drama even in silence
• She told her teacher she regretted opening this level of self-awareness because it felt irreversible; he responded by asking whether she could even go back now, which she accepted she could not
• She learned that shaming herself into change works short term but fails long term, and that only being loving toward herself allows real pattern change

Friendship, interdependence, and asking for help

What makes a real friend

Emma half-jokingly says a true friend is the one you'd call if you had a dead body to move-someone who shows up in your worst crises[2:14:53]
• She values friends with whom she doesn't need airs and graces, who treat her deepest truths with care and can see through her bravado to the pain underneath

Shifting from shame about neediness to honoring interdependence

Emma used to feel deep embarrassment about needing anything from others or asking for help and saw it as a shameful burden[2:19:12]
• She now reframes being asked for help as an honor and privilege, and reminds herself of this when she hesitates to lean on others
• She distinguishes between unhealthy codependency and the reality that humans are highly interdependent and it's okay to want and need others

Activism, J.K. Rowling, Israel-Palestine, and holding both/and

Her stance on J.K. Rowling amid public conflict

Emma says she treasures her personal experiences with J.K. Rowling and feels deep gratitude for the role and world Rowling created for her[4:08:25]
• She insists that loving and respecting Rowling and holding her own views on contentious issues are not mutually exclusive and refuses to "cancel" that part of her life
Commitment to conversation over disposability[4:05:06]
• Emma believes in having conversations and attributes much of the pain to how things are said rather than solely what is said
• She is most upset that a direct conversation with Rowling never became possible and says she remains open to such a dialogue
• She rejects a culture of "throwing out" people as disposable and believes everyone should be treated with dignity and respect even amid strong disagreement

Speaking about Palestine and Israel

After expressing solidarity with Palestine, Emma was labeled an anti-Semite by a former Israeli UN ambassador, which concerned her because of how the label was being used[4:13:48]
• She observes people are afraid to speak about the situation safely and that discourse often falsely forces a choice between caring for terror victims and caring about mass civilian deaths in Palestine
• Emma insists both griefs must be allowed to be true and that one can care deeply about 50,000 civilian deaths, including 17,000 children, and about victims of terrorism at the same time

Closing reflections: advice, worst advice, future work, youth support, and a law of truth with kindness

Best and worst advice

Best advice: ideas from Adrienne Maree Brown's "Emergent Strategy" and pleasure activism[4:19:11]
• The book shifted her from a martyrdom mindset to seeing that anything you want to sustain-like justice-must include ease and pleasure to be enduring
• It also challenged the solitary hero model of activism, making her wish she'd had community and feedback instead of trying to be a solo charismatic figure
Worst advice: toughen up, bottle it up, and partial truth-telling[4:24:53]
• She rejects advice to just be tougher, hold things in, or tell three-quarters of the truth, because that leads to constant peeling and unpeeling rather than real alignment
• She also laughs about terrible beauty advice and procedures that left her with fake tan mishaps and overly whitened teeth she later had to reverse

Choosing future projects and environments

Emma now wants to work only with people who care about her more than about the product they are making together[4:28:31]
• She cites director Stephen Chbosky leaving a productive rehearsal to be with his wife; his prioritizing personal life made her work harder for him and feel safe to be vulnerable
• She criticizes a world that treats objects and outputs as sacred but not people, and wants to invert that priority in her collaborations

Working with young people and giving them what she lacked

Emma describes working with youth to create spaces where they can talk about challenges she had to navigate alone[4:31:58]
• She finds it purposeful to offer them each other and broader conversations, since many issues they struggle with are shared and were things she wished for when younger

Her one law for the world: truth with kindness

Emma's chosen law would center on speaking your truth-with kindness-because so much chaos comes from uncertainty about whether and how to tell the truth[4:35:16]
• She shares a quote: "Truth without kindness is brutality and kindness without truth is manipulation," clarifying she means microscopic, courageous truths spoken in a way that can reach the heart
• Jay adds the Bhagavad Gita's four principles of truthful speech (truthful, beneficial, non-agitating, aligned with timeless wisdom), which Emma says captures exactly what she has been trying to express

Lessons Learned

Actionable insights and wisdom you can apply to your business, career, and personal life.

1

Having a life and career that look like a dream from the outside means very little if your inner experience is misaligned, and telling yourself the uncomfortable truth about that misalignment is the starting point for real change.

Reflection Questions:

  • • Where in my life does the external picture look successful while my internal experience feels drained, anxious, or numb?
  • • How am I currently avoiding or softening a hard truth about my work, relationships, or lifestyle that my body or emotions are already signaling to me?
  • • What small, concrete step could I take this week to acknowledge and act on one misalignment, even if I don't yet know what the full solution looks like?
2

Your body and nervous system are not obstacles to push through but intelligent feedback systems; using wellness practices to tolerate a damaging life, instead of letting them guide you toward a different life, eventually breaks you.

Reflection Questions:

  • • In what ways am I using healthy practices (like exercise, meditation, or therapy) to patch over a fundamentally unhealthy schedule or environment?
  • • How does my body react after big pushes or intense periods-what patterns of illness, exhaustion, or anxiety keep repeating?
  • • If I treated my physical and emotional signals as non-negotiable data instead of inconveniences, what decisions would I need to reconsider this month?
3

Deep, sustainable relationships-romantic or otherwise-depend less on dramatic feelings and more on how safely two nervous systems can dance together through conflict, vulnerability, and change.

Reflection Questions:

  • • How does my body feel after spending time with the key people in my life-calmer, agitated, or depleted?
  • • When conflict arises, do our patterns (timing of responses, tone, frequency of messages) leave both of us feeling safer or more unsettled?
  • • What is one specific adjustment in how I communicate-speed of reply, clarity of needs, or style of disagreement-that could make my closest relationship feel safer for both of us?
4

Articulating your experience through creative work-writing, music, performance, or visual art-can be a more powerful form of therapy than private rumination, especially when it helps loved ones finally see and understand you.

Reflection Questions:

  • • What part of my life story feels most misunderstood or invisible to the people closest to me right now?
  • • Which creative medium (journaling, audio notes, drawing, a short talk, or a one-person "show") feels most natural for me to experiment with to express that story?
  • • How could I safely share a small, honest piece of that creative expression with one trusted person in the next few weeks to deepen mutual understanding?
5

Holding seemingly opposing truths at the same time-gratitude and disagreement, love and hurt, care for multiple sides of a conflict-is a higher form of integrity than collapsing into simplistic either-or positions or disposing of people.

Reflection Questions:

  • • Where in my life am I currently tempted to cancel a person, group, or idea instead of honestly acknowledging both what I value and what I oppose?
  • • How might my conversations about contentious issues change if I named the two (or more) truths I'm trying to hold, instead of picking one for the sake of certainty?
  • • What is one relationship or public debate where I could practice speaking from both empathy and conviction, rather than from attack or withdrawal?
6

Radical honesty only becomes constructive when it is coupled with kindness; partial truths and self-sanitizing may feel safer in the moment but ultimately block intimacy, trust, and your own integrity.

Reflection Questions:

  • • In what situations do I most often tell a filtered or three-quarters version of the truth to avoid discomfort or conflict?
  • • How could I rephrase a difficult truth I need to express so that it's both accurate and considerate-aimed at reaching the other person's heart rather than their defenses?
  • • What is one small but specific truth I've been avoiding that I could practice sharing this week with kindness, so I can build my own tolerance for honest conversations?

Episode Summary - Notes by Kai

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